My favorite bird that I ever saw in my yard was a sandhill crane that made it home for a couple of days a few years ago. I might still have pictures, but I would have to dig for it.
I did from my ADHD brother and it made me want to bust out of my own skin and forced me to work on cleaning obsessively to take my mind off of the feeling.
I can't believe I'm the one that's going to say this, but you need to bury shit that happened 10+ years in the past and leave it in the past. If it made you feel any better dumping it for someone to maybe read, fine, hope it made you feel better getting that off your chest.
And @Schnookums will...