Real nigga advice for you buddy, you clearly seem to have some sort of severe developmental disability here and that's been giving you a rough time here lately. I am going to give you a pro-tip to help you sort through your shit. STEP 1: Quit all social media for a month, STEP 2: Go download the Steam app, STEP 3: purchase the game "Bloons Tower Defense 6" (or pirate it I don't care really), STEP 4: Put at least 50 hours into and take notes along the way about your gameplay experience, STEP 5: Make a 5 hour long YouTube video in autistic detail about what you like and dislike about the game, STEP 6: Repeat the process for other popular casual games. You are now focused on something infinitely more productive than caring what other Internet retards think of you.
TL;DR- Focus your autistic retard brain something else or go suicide bomb a Walmart (in Minecraft). People like you are self-defeating so you're probably turbo fucked is my Doctor's Diagnosis™.