why do you think you feel that way? it sounds interesting and considering I've surrounded myself with people who are the exact opposite (sadists, weirdos in general.) I dont understand how people could dislike venting their frustrations physically,, I'd just like to know why you feel the way you do.
I just do not care for violence. I rarely get angry, or snap. I leave that to my childhood self. the adult me is above that, and knows that it's funnier to ignore people because that is actually a good way to fuck with people irl, since people who want to pick on you or annoy you 99% of the time do it for attention.
Now sexually, like in my fantasies I am a sadist. Would I do 90% of the things I fantasize about? No. Probably because it would traumatize my partners.
Let's just say that I have special leatherbound issues of Marquis De Sade's works and we can leave it at that.
You might think that being against violence as a libertine or hedonist is also a questionable concept, but since it really doesn't do it for me physically, I don't see why it's not a problem.