The friends I made along the way

[Ludwig Linkermann]

Back in my youth when I discovered ED, I formed a very strange understanding of what this place is. I mainly hung out on the forums while having no idea what goes on in the wiki. I had this strange idea that on EDF (which was EDF 2), you can just say whatever offensive shit you like, there's an unwritten rule that it won't be taken as offensive. Therefore I posted freely without having to worry about accidentally offending anybody and I took no offense either. This invited some bullying from the then members of EDF, which I viewed under this lens. Plus I was undergoing IRL bullying at the time so the site overall helped me grow a thick skin. Drama happened when I was naively trying to understand why certain users were acting in certain ways basically.

ED in general had this outcast vibe to it and the users acted like outcasts as well. I had this sugarcoated view of the rest of the internet being respectful by comparison. I went into some fan cultures, doing my own thing (projects) and practically always exposed myself to bottom of the barrel lolcow tier pieces of shit. Their drama wasn't mainly with me and they always had enabler fans that did stupid things. Shit that would "warrant an ED article". I always thought about ED.

ED is everywhere. lol

 

[Ludwig Linkermann]

I'll make this into a series of posts.

This one's more personal and the precursor to how I came to be on this site.

Epic Shit Stain
Went to a religious school. Had an absolutely degenerate classmate from a highly religious catholic family with many children. 5th grade, class trip, other kid had to take a shit, no toilet paper. This began the narrative of the kid shitting himself and would be relentlessly bullied. Slap fights were a weekly sight here and none of the teachers cared until it became too much. Love thy neighbor, right?

The main bully was this catholic kid who was friends with the school radio guy and sent a homoerotic song to the shit stain kid. One time he told him to smear shit on his tits for him. Yeah I thought, this wasn't a bully but a major degenerate.

During all this, I had a BFF who promised to protect me from teh bullies and we hung out a lot. Then by 8th grade his parents got a divorce and he started being a massive dick about it and replaced me with the kid who introduced me to Tarot btw (Finnish metal band, Marko Hietala lead who later joined Nightwish, still a favorite). Penultimate week, I had a violent meltdown. 4-5 classmates holding me down, I beat this BFF up so his lips began to bleed and he ran away to the class teacher. The class teacher called me down to the school yard to shame me for crying while being a boy and excused me for the last week. I went home alone and crying.

Protector into meanest bully pussy, lol. We can't have nice things. The emotional damage was done and I'd been seeking replacement protectors, getting duped by manipulators, until I realized this was going on.