Clean hands. Clean hands! CLEAN HANDS! ᴄʟᴇᴀɴ ʜᴀɴᴅs! ᶜˡᵉᵃⁿ ʰᵃⁿᵈˢᵎ ₗₑₐₙ ₕₐₙₛ!
If there is one thing that Covid should have taught us all, it is the value of clean hands. I say this because I'm putting on contacts because my glasses get in the way of the brainelyzer that I'm using and that I missed last night. This device is the thing I'm pushing all my chips in the center of the table to get rid of suicidal ideation because nothing else has ever worked since third grade. Not even drugs. They help, but they are a massive crutch and not a solution.
So, why clean hands? Excellent question, I'll tell you why. Because when I first started to put in contacts, I got pink eye repeatedly (at least 4 times in a row, how stupid am I?) Do you want to know what pink eye feels like? Sure you do! It feels like being forced to open your eyes in chlorinated pool water for several hours. Fun!
Could I use prescription drugs like antidepressants like SSRIs and SNRIs? Sure, but I like having my dick work, thank you very much! I also don't like being forced to have real suicidal ideations like the time I tried Zoloft. I had some other bad interactions like literally wanting to murder people on Celexa. I don't want to take things that are going to make my life worse to try to make it moderately better. I'll be Dr Jekyll, thank you very much! The doctors that prescribe this shit to me didn't seem to have a real problem doing it. I guess I have to follow rules and shit in order for this crap to be successful, but I'm not doing that and you all know it.
So, brainelyzer is going on to force my brain to learn while I'm doing my back exercises and since I'm now liking the positioning of the end points on my temples because of extremely positive results from the other night, we are doing this again. It helps with memory. It helps with learning. It helps with control. Above the eyes was a nice start and will be done to target the frontal lobes where all the anger is generated. But suicidal ideation does not come from the frontal lobe (I'm almost 100% sure).
I had one other thing I was going to write, but I forgot. If I think of it again, I will post it.