Trying to become ambidextrous

Another lesson learned: the remaining hair on my head does not make for good contact for the tDCS/tACS device. I only know whether or not it is working on A/C mode because it pulses. Nothing really to report yet.
 
So here's a thought if you are going to do snow angels on the ground and the ground is rough carpet.

Maybe use gloves so you don't get rugburn. That might be a smart idea.

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I told you not to look!
 
So, for 11:11PM I bet you didn't expect me to gain total control over my cat "the bear".

Edit - I can't do bonnie right away because I still have bear scent on me. Shhhhhh!
 
OMG!

85% control over Bonnie in front of a fully controlled Bear. This is unreal.

The remaining 15% is Bonnie's flight or fight response kicking into gear. They passed each other and didn't hiss. Unbelievable.

The tDCS/tACS device on the temples of my head on A/C mode is making me able to almost completely control cats. Just a small jump from here to controlling humans, huh?
 
Bonnie was very confused and hissed and did a half-hearted bat at my hand after I was playing with Bear. Bear didn't react.
 
I literally put Bonnie on the pool table uncovered where she isn't supposed to be and she started walking around really confused.

Pavlov, eat it!
 
Ok, here's an interesting one that I'm hoping to unlock in all of my fingers.



Tell your finger to only bend at the joint. Done. At least for the left index finger.
 
At the beginning of my "unfuck my back journey", I decided being flexible was going to be a good thing to do. So one of the things I tried to do was be able to connect my hands behind my back.

At first, this was not very successful. I would press myself up against walls (elbow mostly) to try to get my hand going on the southernly direction towards the middle for the attempt before reaching with the northernly direction hand/arm to make the handshake work.

As I got better at this, I was able to do this with my left arm being the lower connector quite easily and without any assistance. The reverse was much more difficult. The right needs assistance to be able to do this. This is probably just from the years of strength and conditioning from the right from all of the throwing and dominant movement and such.

I'm finally starting to come close to doing the right arm without assistance. Doing this without a shirt or sweatshirt on makes a lot of difference.

One thing this allowed me to do was crack my stupid neck without my shoulders getting in the way and the cracks would go in order like an accordion.

Doing this in the shower often helped a lot because I would just put hot water on my back to assist with the muscles relaxing. Eventually, I would also bend at the waist to bow and try to shake like I was a dog shaking off water to assist even more. This would make my back barely hurt at all for the work day.

I'm finally starting to get the right arm to cooperate to make this fully effective. My goal is to get the same flexibility in my right arm as I already have in my left arm.
 
The one place with my neck/back/spine that is still causing an issue and for which I don't appear to have a current strategy to fix is my very lower back along the hips, specifically my left hip line. I pinched a nerve there doing some random bend and it fucked me up for a couple of days. Excruciating pain where you have to do a turtle roll over to the front if you are on your back to get up.

Every now and then, this fucker decides to act up. I'm going to see what the AI says to do for stretching and maybe augment it for my own needs. But, this is currently the one where none of my other tricks and devices seem to work.
 
One last thing for this thread for now.

The one thing that helps more than anything else if you have back problems is being able to stand up for at least an hour straight without sitting back down. This is one of those things that will naturally help align the spine. It takes some practice if you are used to sitting all day all the time. But it is definitely worth the effort.

I can now stand for like 3+ hours straight without getting tired like I used to be able to do when I had the pizza job.

Sleeping for 14 hours straight on your back? Yeah, get ready to have a fucky back/neck/spine again.
 
Ok, I lied because I'm autistic.

My goals for the rest of my life:

1) Find a repeatable technique to cure pain in the body emanating from the spinal nervous system.
2) Find a way to stop the repeated suicidal ideations that happen to me every 2 weeks to a max of 2 months.
3) That's it. I don't have a third, but lists must include thirds.

Edit - I probably should have real life goals such as starting a family and such, but the other two are so much more important and everything else can come after those two problems are solved.
 
Clean hands. Clean hands! CLEAN HANDS! ᴄʟᴇᴀɴ ʜᴀɴᴅs! ᶜˡᵉᵃⁿ ʰᵃⁿᵈˢᵎ ₗₑₐₙ ₕₐₙₛ!

If there is one thing that Covid should have taught us all, it is the value of clean hands. I say this because I'm putting on contacts because my glasses get in the way of the brainelyzer that I'm using and that I missed last night. This device is the thing I'm pushing all my chips in the center of the table to get rid of suicidal ideation because nothing else has ever worked since third grade. Not even drugs. They help, but they are a massive crutch and not a solution.

So, why clean hands? Excellent question, I'll tell you why. Because when I first started to put in contacts, I got pink eye repeatedly (at least 4 times in a row, how stupid am I?) Do you want to know what pink eye feels like? Sure you do! It feels like being forced to open your eyes in chlorinated pool water for several hours. Fun!

Could I use prescription drugs like antidepressants like SSRIs and SNRIs? Sure, but I like having my dick work, thank you very much! I also don't like being forced to have real suicidal ideations like the time I tried Zoloft. I had some other bad interactions like literally wanting to murder people on Celexa. I don't want to take things that are going to make my life worse to try to make it moderately better. I'll be Dr Jekyll, thank you very much! The doctors that prescribe this shit to me didn't seem to have a real problem doing it. I guess I have to follow rules and shit in order for this crap to be successful, but I'm not doing that and you all know it.

So, brainelyzer is going on to force my brain to learn while I'm doing my back exercises and since I'm now liking the positioning of the end points on my temples because of extremely positive results from the other night, we are doing this again. It helps with memory. It helps with learning. It helps with control. Above the eyes was a nice start and will be done to target the frontal lobes where all the anger is generated. But suicidal ideation does not come from the frontal lobe (I'm almost 100% sure).

I had one other thing I was going to write, but I forgot. If I think of it again, I will post it.
 
As I watch "Through the Wormhole", I keep seeing them put people into the brain scan thing and seeing which parts of the brain are activated when you are thinking this or doing that.

I really want to go into one of those things and have them scan me while I'm on the first window. I would have to be with them for a while. It almost always happens at night. But as soon as it starts happening, I want to see which parts of my brain get activated while I'm having those enforced intrusive thoughts and terrible experiences.

Edit - yeah most likely the amygdala.
 
Yes! I did remember the thing I forgot.

So, how are your eyes? Mine, I need -5.50 contacts in both eyes to see clearly. I can't remember exactly but I think that is about 20ft/200ft vision. It all happened within a matter of months in second grade.

You know the microscope? That thing that you use to look at things close up. It has several lenses. And most of them have 10x magnification technology or whatever.

My eyes? More than half of one of those lenses. I'm cool with my eyes, however. Don't really care. My eyes work fine when the vagus nerve isn't being fucked up the ass.
 
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