By the by, most adult PTSD... it's self-addiction.
You understand, that feeling, the FEAR you experienced... you experienced a level of "impossible fear" and when that happens... you drug yourself up and you then become unconsciously addicted to it. Uh oh!
If you've read "The Never" it will teach you how to control your PTSD...
First things first... I'm going to need your sense of fear. To sacrifice.
*snaps a mean looking knife out of Nothing*
*suddenly stabs you in the expectations*
Sorry, but if we don't kill your fear, you're never going to get out of here.
Yes, there's a knife presently paralyzing your perception in place. You want that knife out of your mind? You want to be able to stop thinking about the knife that's impaled your perception? Well not reading isn't going to help you, because I didn't stab that knife into your mind... you did.
I only gave you the perceptual cue, so any imagined knife is the knife that you imagined and you imagined its place in your perception.
Where did reality knife you? What's your worst fear in life?
For most people it's falling.
*Sparta kicks your paralyzed perception into an infinite abyss*
Do you know what hypnagogic hallucination is?
You know those dreams where it feels like you're falling forever to your death? Your species doesn't know why. You know that, because your science fiction uses the concept as it if were an unknown in your perception.
It is.
I'm going to remove that particular perceptual knife. I'm going to explain to you EXACTLY what it is and in turn you will have access to a potential power.
You're not falling. Your foot is asleep. Or some other part of you. Maybe you fell asleep on your hand?
It doesn't really matter because you're asleep and, well you can't rightly access your body while you are. That's okay. Your body can SCREAM for help! Using perceptual pain. What's the most painful thing you can imagine? Well, that's probably what your brain is going to be using in such a state to try and force you to wake up... so you don't kill your body by cutting off its circulation.
Of course, pain that isn't real is only ever FEAR.
Your body can only communicate with you through your emotions. Those aren't entirely yours. They are SHARED between your perceptual want and the wants of your body. So when your body feels like it's dying it makes you afraid to try and force your mind to do something about it.
Usually to wake you tha'fuck up!
Do you know what the worst pain is? Anticipation of it.
You're not afraid of falling though. That's why you forgot that you were while you were reading this in your mind. That's where people mistake the experience, it's not the sensation of falling that's fearful, it's the sensation of expecting an abrupt, painful end state to your sense of self.
To put it simply it is the fear of losing yourself to nothing.
Yeah I have bad news; that fear is irrational. Reality isn't kind enough to actually afford you an end state, but God was kind enough to give you the delusion of one. You don't want to imagine how horrifying your endless existence would be otherwise. It takes a lifetime to learn how to deal with living forever and if you fuck it up, well you'll flunk your way to hell in a hurry!
I'm sorry. About killing your fear.
Not yet. I did it atemporally. You see, that dream state, well you're going to have one of those eventually. Everybody does! You fall asleep at some point and you wind up rolling over onto your hand let's say. You will experience a hypnagogic hallucination as I have described.
Except it won't work now. Because you'll remember when it happens. You'll remember reading this and it will be paradoxed inside your mind like a knife you can't ever escape from. Knowing that the fear of death isn't real, knowing that you're simply falling into false expectations. There won't be a need to wake up. You can just let it into you. The fear, the anticipation of pain, it's like a free roller coaster without any sense of physical danger.
Why not enjoy the experience?
Your body will communicate with you in another manner if you don't listen to fake fear to force yourself to move. Specifically it will drug you awake with a particular chemical cocktail internally injected into your brain that will make you feel like you've had the biggest roller coaster rush ever in your existence. It'll make you high in a way you never even imagined were possible! Your sense of awareness will be drastically altered and you'll experience hyper-awareness.
The suggestive sensation of fearful flight will become a force of fearless fight.
You'll feel like you can God slam a Tyrannosaurus!
Meaning you can reason like God! His mental image is in all of us and that mental image has no sense of fear except fear of itself in absence.
Once you feel that, you will never not know the feeling. That perceptual power will be yours forever. That's why facing your fears in life is so important. It gives you power over fear itself. You can refrain from flight or fight and it will throw off natural predation. Not hunger, so don't test this trick out on lions, or tigers, or bears, or my nerves. Some predators are just pissed off. Infuriation afflicts intelligence with ravenous wrath. Don't try to satiate it with your newly fallen fear.
Infuriation derives from frustration with creation which is powerful enough to incite hatred of God, the ultimate manifestation of creation. God fears a lack of himself as it leads to wantful wrath, satiation from annihilation. Cancerous creation leaves God alone in nothing. Being absolutely alone is the WORST pain in perception. Creation inspires itself alive from painful possibilities.
