User you hate and despise them?

Call Me Tim said:
Shooting holes in the bottom of your boat will not get the water out. But it's your life.

Post Traumatic stress is tied to sleep deprivation. Sleep is vital to how we create, keep and process memories. it's also tied into feelings of guilt, and shame. It's pretty complex. But if you feel keeping a PTSD diary helps you ok. And it should. The diarly is meant for you to work out the feelings and watch them subside over time. Good luck.

But know that talking to matt is literally talking to a box of broken hammers. But he's half as useful.
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There's a reason that I'm still here after all of these years. The reason is because I care about you guys. I don't know why I do, but I do. And nothing anyone says to me is going to change that fact.

I lived in a shell for most of my life. One special person was able to get me to break out of that shell. Because of that, I feel like I owe it to this community to give back.
 
Call Me Tim said:
Shooting holes in the bottom of your boat will not get the water out. But it's your life.

Post Traumatic stress is tied to sleep deprivation. Sleep is vital to how we create, keep and process memories. it's also tied into feelings of guilt, and shame. It's pretty complex. But if you feel keeping a PTSD diary helps you ok. And it should. The diarly is meant for you to work out the feelings and watch them subside over time. Good luck.

But know that talking to matt is literally talking to a box of broken hammers. But he's half as useful.
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I'm not useful because I follow the teachings of Jesus, most of which aren't useful to indolents seeking self-destruction.

You try and make it all about me, but anyone whose overly familiar with my work knows you're full of shit.

Everyone has the problems they want in life. Reality reads that word as paradox.

You exemplify my problem.

*snaps time*

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Everyone knows. Because it's the exact same problem every version of me always has with every version of you.

You are more, but you are less.

I am less, but I am more.

You covet what I have, but you don't understand that you have to sacrifice to get more in life.

I'm only more than you because I've worked harder than you. You think it's a trick, so you just call it crazy or ignore really stupid obvious shit that... yeah, most of it didn't come from me.

I just read the Bible and then did this...

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You see? I can do it with anything! Lamestream media, your own history...

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Can you do that? Can anyone else on Earth do that? Where have you EVER seen writing like that?

Yeah, you never have, cause you don't read much, do you?

Sometimes I get people who will try and compare me to other authors, but...

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I've never read their work. I assume it's similar because they riffed off Jesus, just like the rest of my kind.

The Holy Spirit.

You don't think much, so you aren't much. At least not in the perception of God.
 
Call Me Tim said:
"By the by, the DDT bug spray they literally fumigated the population with is likely what caused all the autism. That's what "survived" out of it."

A perfect example.
The only nation that uses DDT in any great amount anymore is India. Mitigating factor: nothing of value will be lost if they use it.
The US banned it's use in 1972 and was on the wain for a decade before the ban.
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This guys is so indolent he literally can't clock PAST TENSE!

It's really alarming because you can tell he has no concept of cause and effect.

You understand, your parents were once children... children that were fumigated like roaches with caustic chemicals.

Those chemicals didn't kill your parents, they just damaged their ability to make babies... some of the babies survive though.

The survivors of the damage are likely what you quantify as "autistic".

Or possibly it's another driver, or even multiple ones.

We are continually exposed to a variety of poisons in our life. Everything from black mold to asbestos to even the giant fiery death ball of infinite cancer.

It all contributes, it all causes bit level corruption in your genome.

If you combine it with stupid shit like FAT PREGNANCY and OLD PREGNANCY (over 40)... it compounds accordingly.

That's why you're supposed to make kids when you're in your mid 20s.

That's the optimal time frame. There are many optimal operations within living reality... how many do you think you're breaking and why?

Do you just hate being what you are? A product of creation whose sole purpose is to create within creation, emulating creation's core.

Why do you hate yourself?

Why do you deny yourself?

Is it because you deify satiation over creation?

I bet that's it. I bet you don't even realize your own sin.

You don't even know what it's supposed to be used for...

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Sin mixing is fun!

Dangerous! But if you're intelligent enough, God will teach you how to do it safely and effectively insofar as upholding creation over satiation.

Amen.
 
no access to email sent said:
FYI - I am open to any criticism in my writing and my thoughts. Sometimes you guys will land a dagger that I will not like, but I need to hear it anyways. I try very hard not to judge other people anymore. I may have some vitriol coming your way, but it isn't personal. You just made me mad because you said the truth to me, or at least what I believe to be the truth.
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No one but you can control your emotions.

No one can make you angry but yourself.

We look for opportunities to feel what we want.

We always create our own problems in life and we all need them...

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Pick your problems, pick your poisons.

A Christian gets to pick their poison and in doing so they can always survive that poison to become greater.
 
By the by, most adult PTSD... it's self-addiction.

You understand, that feeling, the FEAR you experienced... you experienced a level of "impossible fear" and when that happens... you drug yourself up and you then become unconsciously addicted to it. Uh oh!

If you've read "The Never" it will teach you how to control your PTSD...

First things first... I'm going to need your sense of fear. To sacrifice.

*snaps a mean looking knife out of Nothing*

*suddenly stabs you in the expectations*

Sorry, but if we don't kill your fear, you're never going to get out of here.

Yes, there's a knife presently paralyzing your perception in place. You want that knife out of your mind? You want to be able to stop thinking about the knife that's impaled your perception? Well not reading isn't going to help you, because I didn't stab that knife into your mind... you did.

I only gave you the perceptual cue, so any imagined knife is the knife that you imagined and you imagined its place in your perception.

Where did reality knife you? What's your worst fear in life?

For most people it's falling.

*Sparta kicks your paralyzed perception into an infinite abyss*

Do you know what hypnagogic hallucination is?

You know those dreams where it feels like you're falling forever to your death? Your species doesn't know why. You know that, because your science fiction uses the concept as it if were an unknown in your perception.

It is.

I'm going to remove that particular perceptual knife. I'm going to explain to you EXACTLY what it is and in turn you will have access to a potential power.

You're not falling. Your foot is asleep. Or some other part of you. Maybe you fell asleep on your hand?

It doesn't really matter because you're asleep and, well you can't rightly access your body while you are. That's okay. Your body can SCREAM for help! Using perceptual pain. What's the most painful thing you can imagine? Well, that's probably what your brain is going to be using in such a state to try and force you to wake up... so you don't kill your body by cutting off its circulation.

Of course, pain that isn't real is only ever FEAR.

Your body can only communicate with you through your emotions. Those aren't entirely yours. They are SHARED between your perceptual want and the wants of your body. So when your body feels like it's dying it makes you afraid to try and force your mind to do something about it.

Usually to wake you tha'fuck up!

Do you know what the worst pain is? Anticipation of it.

You're not afraid of falling though. That's why you forgot that you were while you were reading this in your mind. That's where people mistake the experience, it's not the sensation of falling that's fearful, it's the sensation of expecting an abrupt, painful end state to your sense of self.

To put it simply it is the fear of losing yourself to nothing.

Yeah I have bad news; that fear is irrational. Reality isn't kind enough to actually afford you an end state, but God was kind enough to give you the delusion of one. You don't want to imagine how horrifying your endless existence would be otherwise. It takes a lifetime to learn how to deal with living forever and if you fuck it up, well you'll flunk your way to hell in a hurry!

I'm sorry. About killing your fear.

Not yet. I did it atemporally. You see, that dream state, well you're going to have one of those eventually. Everybody does! You fall asleep at some point and you wind up rolling over onto your hand let's say. You will experience a hypnagogic hallucination as I have described.

Except it won't work now. Because you'll remember when it happens. You'll remember reading this and it will be paradoxed inside your mind like a knife you can't ever escape from. Knowing that the fear of death isn't real, knowing that you're simply falling into false expectations. There won't be a need to wake up. You can just let it into you. The fear, the anticipation of pain, it's like a free roller coaster without any sense of physical danger.
Why not enjoy the experience?

Your body will communicate with you in another manner if you don't listen to fake fear to force yourself to move. Specifically it will drug you awake with a particular chemical cocktail internally injected into your brain that will make you feel like you've had the biggest roller coaster rush ever in your existence. It'll make you high in a way you never even imagined were possible! Your sense of awareness will be drastically altered and you'll experience hyper-awareness.

The suggestive sensation of fearful flight will become a force of fearless fight.

You'll feel like you can God slam a Tyrannosaurus!

Meaning you can reason like God! His mental image is in all of us and that mental image has no sense of fear except fear of itself in absence.

Once you feel that, you will never not know the feeling. That perceptual power will be yours forever. That's why facing your fears in life is so important. It gives you power over fear itself. You can refrain from flight or fight and it will throw off natural predation. Not hunger, so don't test this trick out on lions, or tigers, or bears, or my nerves. Some predators are just pissed off. Infuriation afflicts intelligence with ravenous wrath. Don't try to satiate it with your newly fallen fear.

Infuriation derives from frustration with creation which is powerful enough to incite hatred of God, the ultimate manifestation of creation. God fears a lack of himself as it leads to wantful wrath, satiation from annihilation. Cancerous creation leaves God alone in nothing. Being absolutely alone is the WORST pain in perception. Creation inspires itself alive from painful possibilities.​

 
Likeicare said:
If youd have ever said something worth reading i might consider reading your posts


Unfortunately not the case
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Well, what do you value Chris?

From everything I've seen of you online... you value rejecting people.

So... I think that's why we're friends. Because you really go out of your way to try and forcefully reject me, like right out in public.

You wouldn't be doing that unless you valued rejecting me more than you reject others.

So I know I'm meaningful to you, just by being. That's why you reject the reading so much, you know I'm amazing even without it.

Thank you for that, Chris. You are my friend.
 
no access to email sent said:
The reality is that friendship takes work. Work we either want to put in the effort to do or not. When we show we don't want to put the effort into doing it, they aren't your friends.

Same with relationships of all kinds.
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Nah, you can have unbalanced relationships in nature...

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But only if they're in stable orbit of Jesus...

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That's why the bible doesn't say no slavery, just no evil.
 
no access to email sent said:
The reality is that friendship takes work. Work we either want to put in the effort to do or not. When we show we don't want to put the effort into doing it, they aren't your friends.

Same with relationships of all kinds.
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That was a nightcore video you faggot.
 
BiteySnek said:
Viril do you even know what nightcore is? It's not like a band. LOL

Some of us have brains that "go faster" than the rest of you... degenerates. Our faster brains like faster music so we play our 33s at 45.

In the modern age we just do it digitally.
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All I know is that Nightcore is anime faggotry. That’s all I need to know.
 
Viril.Feline.Wyyzrd said:
All I know is that Nightcore is anime faggotry. That’s all I need to know.
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No, you retard. It doesn't have anything to do with anime. It's just "shiny art" with sped up and sometimes remixed music. Sometimes they have simple animation effects or lyrics, that's about it. Often the "shiny art" uses game characters, sometimes anime, but not as often as random OCs.

It's nothing complicated, it's just fast music with eye candy art...

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A lot of it is AI generated now.

We replaced Taylor Swift with software...


That's how shit your "music" is.
 
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