two words that don't belong together

squiggles2

Dramacrat
hardcore meditation

I did that tonight. Let's just say the well isn't that difficult to find.

Feel free to join in by either meditating or putting two words that don't belong together in this thread.
 
Well, I always fashioned myself as the world's most "intelligent retard."
Do not short change yourself. You would be surprised how many people do not even know how to operate a computer.

Just because you do not know complex algorithms does not make you "retarded".
 
Ok, I'm going to attempt to describe vividly one of the "scenes" that I have seen multiple times during meditation.

I have a video as a visual aid and my chicken scratch paint screenshots overlayed to give a description of what is happening.



The video is pretty much similar to the motion that I experience. The overlay is the actual image that I am seeing.

I call it the cavern and the amorphous block.

When I arrive in this place, the block is always on the left and the cavern is this turquoise color.

At 2 seconds into the video, the next overlay describes how the amorphous block begins to move in space to take up more space in the cavern.

At 4 seconds into the video, the next overlay describes the relative pattern that is on the background "wall" of the cavern. It kind of looks like an aqua marine subway tile pattern or something like that.

The last overlay attempts to describe how all of a sudden this space gets much much larger as if the cavern is now opening up in the 3rd dimension.

Around this time, the sequence ends and I get to another one of these meditative creations.

These are almost like watching a movie to me. I've been able to watch things happen for at least 5 minutes before. If I were to guess, this pattern takes about 15 to 30 seconds to complete.

And this is far from the only kind of thing I've seen so far. There are warm colors, cool colors, stop motion picture-ish looking things, traveling through space kind of things. All sort of things I'm discovering.

The meditative process can only help whatever underlying condition of stress and anxiety that I have. So, I'm hoping to continue this journey.
 
So, I welled just because I wanted to describe the journey it takes to get there.

Cross legged, head tilted forward, I've got a hoodie on, cupped hands over my face, controlled breathing:

It takes about 5 minutes for me when I'm on to get to the gates and gain entry.

It is an up and down ride. I command myself "no intrusive thoughts" when some thought is intruding. I don't get discouraged that I didn't make it on the first attempt. It may take multiple attempts to go deeper. Sometimes I'm in the right mood, sometimes I need the training and mental exercise to get go deeper.

The things that I say to myself other than "no intrusive thoughts" are simple commands such as "deeper". Any type of frustration at this effort sets you back. That can ruin the whole experience. Don't give up. You are already half way there.

If everything goes right, I can get to where the movie starts to play in 10 minutes to 15 minutes. If it doesn't, it may take longer because of intrusive thoughts or thinking about whether or not your eyes are open or closed, things like that.

I got to the well and immediately pulled back out to type this.
 
There is an extreme limit. You can't pour from an empty cup.

I've tried. It doesn't work. If you are empty, you are empty.

Trying to empty yourself when you are on empty is a futile effort.

That's something to keep in mind.
 
Do not short change yourself. You would be surprised how many people do not even know how to operate a computer.

Just because you do not know complex algorithms does not make you "retarded".
Yep
 
There is an extreme limit. You can't pour from an empty cup.

I've tried. It doesn't work. If you are empty, you are empty.

Trying to empty yourself when you are on empty is a futile effort.

That's something to keep in mind.
I guess you could say that I went back to the well one too many times in this instance.
 
Now I realize that I shouldn't have posted that post yesterday. Not good timing.

Bad Mike.

I forget that other people may also not have boundaries.
 
Ok, so I'm going to share my Invisalign moment with you. I know you didn't ask, but here it is anyways.

Get ready.

I saved all of the retainers I got during the cycle. I'm on the permanent set for several months now. I've been a good boy and worn them as prescribed.

I saved them all so I could try on the very first pair and ...

It doesn't fit ...

And my teeth started to try to move back.

Weeeeee!

Such fun.

That was worth it.

Now into the garbage.
 
Back
Top Bottom